But instead I've been crying for hours the last couple nights. I feel alone and forgotten. And I know I shouldn't. The most perfect person for me was all mine, and now that its over I feel like i won't find someone like that again. I know I can find someone better though. I feel myself slipping back into the depressing state I was in when I first got to Provo and it scares me. There's no use in being depressed though. I try and keep my head up and smile, but I end up frowning and looking at the ground as I walk. I know the ways I should be feeling and should be acting to get over this, but I feel physically held down with this depressing weight and sadness. However, I am successfully reminding myself over and over that tests like this are essential to life. And patience and faith are key to receiving answers.
When I was scripture studying today I came across this verse that made me feel a little better:
"And Ammon said unto her: Blessed art thou because of thy exceeding faith; I say unto thee, woman, there has not been such great faith among all the people of the Nephites." Alma 19:10.
then I walked to the temple and felt peace there. I was actually disappointed it wasn't crazy busy as usual because I only got to feel that peace for twenty minutes.
I can't wait to go home. 14 days!
Molly! I know we don't know each other very well, but I have felt this way before. I know that probably isn't too much of a comfort to you, but you are still awesome and you will find someone SO great for you! And it does pass, maybe not always as quickly as you hope, but it does. If you ever need people to hang out with/distract you, just let me know!
ReplyDeleteLove you, Molly!!
ReplyDeletethanks you two :)
ReplyDeletesmile. you're beautiful. and i already have your husband picked out, so don't sweat it.
ReplyDeletehaha and whoooo would that be???
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